June 07, 2006
Phone-view
In about 44 minutes, I have my phone interview for a real job with the National Scenic Byways Program. I feel like I should be using this time to prepare, but I don't know what to do for that. Mostly, I just feel sick to my stomach.
I can't decide whether or not I really want this job, so I'm going to make a list of pros and cons because I love making lists.
Pros:
-- steady income (making at least 3 times more than I've ever made in my life)
-- defined/concrete work environment
-- travel
-- no more school, ie hours and hours of fruitless reading, papers that get a B+, having to deal with egos and professors (which are the same thing), trying to figure out what I want to study.
-- not worrying about the future anymore, at least for a couple years
-- get a cute apartment and be able to furnish it
-- feel like a real adult and wear high heels (sometimes)
-- working for a program I feel good about
Cons (or at least worries):
-- have to leave friends and comfortable environment
-- no more school, ie those times when you actually have amazing discussions and you learn so much and it feels so great to be involved in higher education, papers you struggle over and get an A on, studying things you actually care about.
-- creating a life style and then in a couple years not being able to maintain it
-- living in Duluth where it's winter three-quarters of the year and maybe no friends and kind of far away from everything
-- work becoming a routine, having to wake up at 6:30 or 7 or whenever every morning.
-- lots and lots of meetings
-- would i regret dropping out of school?
-- and of course, what if I don't do a good job?
So that's what's been turning over and over in my mind in the short time that I've been seriously considering this job. I still feel sick.
Posted by kea at June 7, 2006 10:24 AM