June 30, 2004
Tyrant in the Making
I sometimes think that I have tyrannical tendencies. This thought scares me, but I'm not sure why. What's wrong with being a tytrant? Well, a lot of things, I guess. Let me put before you the kernels of tyranny that sometimes pop inside me.
Exhibit A: I got home from being away for the weekend, and one of the first things I noticed was that the bathroom hadn't been cleaned yet. It was my roommate's turn to clean it. I wanted to say something nasty to her about it, but didn't. Then when she got home that evening, she told me she didn't think it was dirty enough to clean it yet and that she would later this week. Then she asked me if that was okay. I said sure, but I was secretly thinking nasty thoughts about how come she couldn't just clean it and that there were toothpaste splashes on the mirror and faucet. And I wished she would notice that I prefer to keep the toilet seat down.
Exhibit B: I was driving to work yesterday morning, and a big orange truck cut me off. I mean, there were no cars behind me, but he just had to pull out in front of me. I wanted to decapitate him. Set him inside the guillotine and cut him off.
Exhibit C: Another roommate/bathroom situation. This morning, I was looking at my lone toothbrush in the cup on the counter. My last roommate used to share this cup with me. Our toothbrushes would mingle, and every once in a while, I almost used her toothbrush on accident. It was a rather friendly situation. Now my toothbrush lookes wilted and lonely in the cup because the new roommate won't put her toothbrush in there with it.
So these may not be Mussolini-level aspects of tyranny, but it disturbs me that I'm so passive aggressive. I mean, I wish I could just get all this out in the open. Maybe that's why it's on the Internet, but I still hope that my roommate doesn't ever see this. Or the man driving the big, orange truck.
Posted by kea at June 30, 2004 10:53 AM